I KNOW that I’m sick.

But I’m too scared to get help.

this is going to be my greatest struggle in my personal life..  I have Deans List at my college and a bright future a head.. why is this holding me back?

I need counseling .. I use food as a crutch. Maybe I am just lazy.. All I know is tht food makes me happy.. I exercise a lot but dont lose weight… ahhh

I’m not making any progress. I suck at life >:(

sometimes I feel like life would be better if I didn’t exist. 

I’ll never be good enough

I think I need some help :(

I’m about to have a strict diet of lean cuisine dinners, zero calorie dinners and nothing else besides fruits and veggies..

Easier said than done!

I’ve gained a pound or 2. whatever

I’m gonna go grocery shopping for healthy stuff.

Sweets are my  biggest friends  enemies right nowww :/

ughh

My nutritionist wanted me to be under 220 on thursday but I was like 228.

I’m so lonely and overwhelmed .. No wonder I am eating terribly.

sugar overload=no bueno :$

A pair of jeans that I couldn’t squeeze into last year, fit me pretty well now. :)

I just posted a weight tracker on the side of my tumblr.. I’ve got a long way to go o_O but if I keep this up, I should be healthier by next spring.. I’m gonna be working hard this summer…